The strangest things.....

Everyone knows I talked about my kid all the time when he was alive.  He was my whole world.  I don't anticipate that this will change anytime soon.  I hope that doesn't make people uncomfortable but to be perfectly honest, I really don't care.  I love my son more than anything and if I want to talk about him, I will.  You don't have to listen and I am okay with that.  I don't expect you to care like I do. 
Anyway,  back when Esa wrote about her "Chester's Hot Fries" obsession, I silently giggled to myself because I sat there thinking about Nicholas and how much he liked them as well.  He talked me into trying them a few times and I never really cared for them.  When I went into Nicholas' room to find what I wanted him to wear for visitation, I noticed a bag, empty of course, of those same Chester's Hot Fries in the garbage can in his room.  This reminded me of all of the times we would stop for snacks, usually at a QuickTrip because it is our favorite convenience store, and he would debate between Hot Fries, Funyuns, or Chex Mix.  He loved SunChips (Harvest Cheddar) as well but we usually kept these in the big bag at home for him so he didn't get these as a "special" snack. 
After deciding on his snack, Nicholas would always ask what size freezie he could get and I would tell him whatever size he wanted.  The reply was always the same but he always asked for some reason that I will never know now.  I was always rewarded with one of his cute little grins, though, as he pulled the monster size cup from the display and began to debate over the numerous freezie flavors that the QT offers.  Sometimes, he would decide on what flavor he wanted based on how frozen it was and he usually liked for me to fill his cup because he said that somehow I could fit more in the cup.  Whether that was true or he just wanted his momma to fix it---well, I guess I'll never know that either. 
As healthy as the kid ate for most of his life, I am glad that he got some enjoyment from junk food sometimes.  I have found myself, over the last few days, wanting the strangest things.  I am eating things that I have never eaten before.  All of them are things that my sweet son would ask for and I would buy and keep in the house for him but never eat myself.  So strange...but the Hot Fries were so good.