So, what do you eat when it seems like everything makes you sick to your stomach? I've tried eating only bland foods and I've tried eating exactly what seems like a good idea at the time, regardless of what it is. I know it is because I am still so sad because I can't hug my son every day. I know I have to eat. Everyone around me seems to remind me all the time and even seems to pay particular attention to what and when I eat. I simply don't care to eat. I still cook. I have to cook for Michaela and I generally let her choose what we will have for dinner like I used to let Nicholas choose.
I ate five "tater logs" today. They smelled good when I walked in the Favorite Market to get a Diet Coke. I always ask for the skinny ones because the fat ones don't seem to get cooked all the way. They lady huffed when I asked for them like she was having a bad day. I told her that I hoped her day got better and she said, "My day is just FINE! It's just digging through these....!" I guess she didn't mind letting me know that I was putting her out tremendously by asking for the skinny ones. I know she didn't realize it took all the effort I had to smile at her today so I forgive her for being so disagreeable. I'm sure she has bad things going on in her life right now too. It did set me to thinking about how just a little kindness all of the time can make a difference. I do try to always be kind but I think I will try even harder. You just never know what someone else is going through.
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